Today

Today is an anxious day. I have become more aware of these lately. It scares me a little (of course being in psychiatry I always have mental illness on the mind), but I really believe that it's just because my stress threshold is always close to max at this stage of my life. Being in a very intense graduate program while raising a 2-year-old--all away from home--is enough to put anyone over the edge, right? So I'm just fragile. I seem to feel all of my hormonal changes acutely each month. And if I have a little too much coffee and then get a look from a parent (this happened today after Soren hit his son...agghh!), then I feel ready to cry. It's okay. It just reminds me how vitally important it is to take care of my heart--taking time each day to exercise and time to journal/meditate. Keeping my weekends sacred, only spending time with people who truly bring me joy. Today I'm fragile and I thank God for the reminder...that I am not invincible and I need daily care.